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Car wreck
05:45
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I hope you regret ever going out that night. Another night alone with the kids trying not to cry. A state trooper's wife shouldn't spend this much time – wondering if her husband will call or forget. As you chain smoked a pack of cigarettes, did you think it could be this hard to keep your face from getting wet. Why should tonight be any different? Just another shot before you pick up your children. Don't forget the tricks to not get caught that you learned from him. Maybe they will think you smell like rum raisin instead of gin. You must be getting sloppy in your old age; 10 years of drunk driving and it's always been okay. I hope you regret not turning on your head lights. There wouldn't have been a car wreck if you were in sight. You're so fucking lucky that you survived. While other drivers were being rushed to the hospital, you remembered to deny the Breathalyzer. And for the first time in years, being married to a cop you're thankful. The chances more than one in a million.
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Phone call
03:15
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Brother, can you be bothered? It's been at least a month since you called home. Another town passes by in a blur of all night drives and basement shows. Today you found a place to stay with an artist that hasn't drawn in weeks. After six hours of video games your phone rings... it's your brother... you don't answer. Brendan, check your messages. There's been a car wreck, your sister may be dead. When you finally call back are you really going to sit there with that shit eating grin, half-heartedly listening, while still playing the same Goddamn game that you started this morning? Is Kimberly's life not worthy of pausing a game? It was only a game, and I'm so ashamed. It was only a game.
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Contrast Siblings
03:23
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Oakland, California is more fickle than I thought. I can't help but notice... this whole town smell like pot. As I eat chocolate covered pretzels, three thousand miles away – Kim lies on an operating table subdued and dismayed. When I'm asked if I'm canceling tour to go home, I lie and say she wouldn't want that, if she had known. From a stage, I use Kim's plight to get stranger's pity. Sometimes my selfishness astounds me. Far from you, how do I sleep at night?
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Morphine overdose
02:36
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Leave it to a Doctor to make miscalculations. They set her her dosage to high. An IV of morphine hooked to a button. “Press it when you come down from that high and you won't overdose” Leave it to a mother to kill her kid with kindness. She pushed Kim's button all night. She wanted her daughter to remain painless. That's way Kim couldn't be revived. But they said you won't overdose.
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Going home
05:23
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Every mile brings me further East. I won't call or text; I can't cope with this distance. My loving family decide not to disturb me. Better to be in the dark, than miserable in the car. For the first time, I'm afraid of someone dying.
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